Well, the fascination started. I moved on to a tank with a betta and two female swordtails and a male swordtail. They looked too crowded in there. So when I saw a 55 gallon tank on craigslist for $25, I was like, "!" ... "mine!" and bought it. I had to decorate that 55 gallon tank, you see, so I gave the swordtails and betta some plants, and then the plants had to have the proper substrate, so I started learning about rooted plant growth and settled on kitty litter, and then the plants had to have lights and CO2. . .
Well. Then I got snails, from my plants. And then I got assassin snails, water fleas, and other watery tagalongs. But then I got leeches. Grr. And I tried raising the salt content (turned the tank not only brackish, but to full salt water. You could see wavy light when you stirred the water, lol). But the leeches still did not die! They! Had! Babies! So, instead of going down the track of chemical warfare on those goshforsaken leeches (I was all ready, with the Levamisole HCl), I looked at my plants and my invertebrates and decided to try a different track instead. I didn't want to wipe everything out. So I looked into loaches. Too big. I looked into cichlids. Perfect, nice and small. I joined the OCA to get some Neolamprologus multifasciatus, thinking they'd eat leeches.
But then I saw darters on aquabid one day. They're so cool! The way they sit their backside on something and then prop themselves up with their little arm/fin things. And look at you, defiantly. And so the native fish love began. It turns out there's all this stuff you can collect. Bettas come from Thailand and swordtails come from central america. So what interesting things could be living in our waters? I went to Japan and saw Giant Salamanders. I watched videos on Lake Tanganyika and the shell dwelling colonies that live there. I've seen angelfish pounce upon unsuspecting neon tetras from their murky vertical stalked plant hiding spaces in the Amazon River system. But what's living in my own backyard? I had no idea.
So I looked up darters. And I found out. And I'm glad I did.

I keep fish because it's nice to have something to love. I can't have a cat or a dog, my friendships are transitory, and I was recently severed from everyone I knew and loved and packaged up and sent away to an unfamiliar environment like a parcel. My life is not by any means comforting, and I have to move to a new residence every eight months. Everything I own. Goes to a new place. With new people who do not care about me. So I take my fish with me. I experiment with them, trying to keep them as comfortable and happy and natural-environment as I can. When they breed, it makes me happy. It tells me that they are living full lives, just as they would if they hadn't been tampered with. They, at least, are secure in this strange transitory lifestyle that I have, where nothing is constant. And it's true; nothing is constant. Today is the last day at my internship, and Sunday I'm packing up everything I own and moving back to campus, saying goodbye to all the nice people I've met while I worked here and going off to a strange new dorm room with strange new classes, teachers, and class mates. But my fish are coming with me, and they will be happy, and eating and breeding and living just as they always do. So I'll be happy, too.
That's why I keep my fish. *sniffles*
Edited by Okiimiru, 13 August 2010 - 12:23 PM.